Jul 2, 2024
SAVANA - Straight to Zelle: Part 2
The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast
When host Amanda meets Dick—a seemingly charming Mormon man from Las Vegas who pursued her relentlessly on social media—she had no idea the chaos that was about to unfold. What began as a whirlwind romance quickly unraveled into something far more disturbing.
Season One of The Dichotomy Diaries pulls back the curtain on the man behind the mask. What appears to be a devoted husband and religious man is, in truth, a compulsive liar entangled in financial domination, secret escorting for men, and a web of manipulation that left a trail of broken women. This season follows Amanda and six other unsuspecting women, all connected by the same predator, as they share their raw, unfiltered stories of betrayal, coercive control, and the strength it took to survive him.
New victims of Dick continue to surface regularly. On average, The Dichotomy Diaries has helped at least one woman per month recognize the red flags, escape the manipulation, and avoid becoming the next chapter in this chilling story.
But the story doesn’t stop there. Each subsequent season of The Dichotomy Diaries centers around a new brave individual who chose to speak their truth—shedding light on toxic relationships, the psychology of abuse, and what it really means to reclaim your voice.
These aren’t just stories. They’re a warning, a mirror, and a testament to the power of truth. Because sometimes, real life is darker—and more unbelievable—than fiction.
Episodes
Episodes
Jul 12, 2024
Jul 12, 2024
1hr 1 min
Dear Diary & Listeners,
In this exciting Bonus Episode of The Dichotomy Diaries, I interview the beautiful, bad ass, Vanessa Reiser, a Licensed Clinical Social Worker from The Big Apple who's got a BOOK coming out soon! (Pre-Order Link Below!)
We talk about SO many juicy topics including the connection between narcissistic abuse and cults, the behavior and mindset of narcissists and psychopaths, and dissect the experience of victims down piece by piece.
We touch on the confusing role most family members take in (not) warning others about the narcissist in their life. Join us as we break down the challenges of conveying the complexity of narcissistic abuse in a concise manner others. A topic that I've really struggled with lately...
This episode also explores trauma bonding and addiction in narcissistic relationships. Vanessa and I talk about the repetitive cycle of love bombing, devaluing, and discarding, which creates a trauma bond and intense addiction to the makeup session.
Vanessa emphasizes the need for support and understanding for those trying to extricate themselves from these relationships, comparing it to drug addiction. Not to mention the post-separation abuse that can occur, which more often than not, includes attempts to destroy the victim's life.
I had SO MUCH FUN chatting in up with Vanessa and learning all the things from her not only about my relationship with Dick, but about important topics and congruencies I wasn't even aware of.
Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda
Be sure to check below for Vanessa's website, how to find her on Social Media, and Pre-Order her new book: Narcissistic Abuse: A Therapist's Guide to Identifying, Escaping, and Healing from Toxic and Manipulative People.
@vanessareiserlcsw-narcissi5380
Website: https://www.tellatherapist.net
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/vanessareiserlcsw
TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@vanessareiser
BOOK PRE ORDER: https://www.amazon.com/dp/0306833174
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Music: Ashley England
Guest: Vanessa Reiser, LCSW
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
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Aug 6, 2024
Aug 6, 2024
53 min
Dear Diary & Listener's,
I cannot tell you how excited I was to book this interview, with Dr. Nadine Macaluso. While most of you may not know her immediately by just mentioning her name- most of you probably know her story.
Dr. Nadine Macaluso was married to Jordan Belfort, The Wolf of Wall Street. Her character, name changed, was played by the beautiful Margo Robbie in the Scorsese director box office hit!
Join Dr. Nae and I as we discuss so many topics dear to both of our hearts.
In this episode Dr. Nadine Macaluso, a licensed marriage and family therapist, shares her story of being married to Jordan Belfort, the Wolf of Wall Street, and how it led her to write a book and become an advocate for trauma bonding and pathological lovers.
She discusses the challenges of having her life portrayed in a movie and the lack of control she had over the narrative. Dr. Macaluso emphasizes the importance of self-reflection and understanding one's own vulnerabilities in order to break free from toxic relationships. She also explores the concept of cognitive dissonance and the difficulty of leaving an abusive partner.
The conversation explores the themes of healing from trauma bonds, finding one's voice, and navigating new relationships after abuse. Dr. Nae and I emphasize the importance of self-compassion and grace in the healing process. The conversation also touches on the challenges of co-parenting and the impact of trauma bonds on children. We both share their personal experiences and offer hope for post-traumatic growth and reinvention.
Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda
Be sure to check below for Dr. Nadine's website where you can order her book Run Like Hell and explore many of her free tools, like the Self Compassion Assessment we discussed in this episode. Give Dr. Nae a follow on her social media, all linked below as well!
@TheRealDrNadine
Website: https://drnae.com/about-dr-nadine-mac...
Free Assessments by Dr. Nae: https://drnae.com/assessments/
Order Run Like Hell Book Here: https://drnae.com/run-like-hell-book/
Instagram: / therealdrnadine
TikTok: / drnaelmft
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Facebook: / drnaelmft
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Aug 7, 2024
Aug 7, 2024
1hr 9 min
Dear Diary & Listeners,
I did an interview a while back with two LOVELY ladies by the name of Behk & LAH. If you haven't heard it yet, you're about to.
Enjoy!
Amanda
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In this special collaboration episode, Behk & LAH of "Narcissists, Gaslighters, and Cheaters, Oh My!" sit down with Amanda Arnier, the insightful host of "The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast." Together, they explore emotional intricacies in relationships, focusing on the challenges of dealing with narcissists and toxic people.
Topics Discussed:
Meet Amanda Arnier of the podcast, The Dichotomy Diaries
Trust – is it earned or a gift?
Why Amanda started “The Dichotomy Diaries” podcast
The importance of sharing our stories
The case of Dick
The dual mothership theory by Dr. Vaknin
We’re Carl Jungians
Attachments
Amanda’s healing journey
What's next for “The Dichotomy Diaries?”
Amanda brings her unique perspective from "The Dichotomy Diaries," where she recounts her relationship with Dick and shares the experiences of other women who were also involved with him. This episode discusses the complexities of narcissists, strategies for navigating toxic dynamics, and the importance of sharing these stories for healing.
Please tune in for an intimate and revealing dialogue that offers a deeper understanding of Amanda’s mission and the powerful stories she shares with her audience.
Subscribe and listen to "Narcissists, Gaslighters, and Cheaters, Oh My!" and "The Dichotomy Diaries" on your favorite podcast platforms. Don't forget to rate, review, and share!
Book mentioned in this episode:
The Road Less Traveled: A New Psychology of Love, Values, and Spiritual Growth by M. Scott Peck M.D.
Content Warning: This episode discusses various forms of toxic abuse, narcissistic abuse, and any topics that may disturb some listeners. Listener discretion is advised.
We are not doctors or therapists; you should not take our opinions as medical advice.
Hosts: Behk & LAH
Follow us on Instagram + Facebook @ngcompod
Production & Design: LAHarden
Music: No Reason Why by Anchor
Help us keep the show going on Patreon
Narcissists, Gaslighters, Cheaters, Oh My! Podcast's Patreon
The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast's Patreon
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Sep 23, 2024
Sep 23, 2024
1hr 29 min
TRIGGER WARNING: This episode of The Dichotomy Diaries discusses sexual assault in detail. If this topic is triggering for you, please take care of yourself and consider skipping this episode.
Dear Diary & Listeners,
The past few months have been a serious struggle for me. I’ve been dragging my feet on wrapping up Season 1 of the podcast, stuck in this frustrating writers' block. No matter what I did, I just couldn’t get the creative juices flowing like I used to, keeping me up late into the night creating for you all.
I think I know what sparked the shift, but it’s still a bit confusing. I reconnected with someone who just gets my brain. Being around him feels amazing—safe, even. It’s like all the overthinking noise in my head quieted down for a change. But here’s the thing: I need challenges in my life to stay motivated. I thrive on goals to work toward every day. This podcast was that challenge for me.
But as Season 1 wrapped up and I got to the final interview, I looked around and thought, “WTF? This is too easy now.” And you know what? The most unexpected challenge I found was in my own head. My new relationship is healthy and fulfilling, but I’m literally challenging my traumatized brain every day not to go off the deep end and screw it all up. Can you imagine that feeling? Being completely happy and fulfilled, yet your brain is like, “ABORT! Everyone's a liar!” It’s a wild ride.
Here’s the thing I didn’t know: there are people out there who see you struggling, who actually help and affirm your feelings, and who can take a horrible situation born from trauma and make it better. Yep, not worse—better.
So, that brings me to why I’m sharing what I’m sharing today. I’m going to take you back to something that happened to me about 11 years ago. It was traumatic then, and it still is to think about (I definitely had a few mini panic attacks while recording this—watch it on YouTube if you want to see how wild it was). I’ll walk you through one of my first Tinder dates, back when it was the hottest dating app out there.
As I always say, shame has no home inside me. I made some bad choices that put me in danger, and I need to own up to that. I want to share it with you so you can see, 1) we all make mistakes, 2) how serious those mistakes can be, 3) what you can do to avoid them, and 4) the tools you need to stay safe in this crazy dating world.
Maybe it’s because I feel safe, seen, and truly loved right now, but I really want to get this off my chest. I’m not going to lie, though—this is rough. It’s graphic, and if you have any issues with content related to sexual assault, I suggest you skip this episode.
As always, thanks for giving me a place to be 100% myself. Thank you for listening to me without judgment. You all keep me going. Oh, and PS: I’m so glad to be back on the mic.
Forever Sharing My Truth,
Amanda
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Oct 8, 2024
Oct 8, 2024
1hr 31 min
Dear Diary & Listeners,
In this episode of The Dichotomy Diaries, I welcome Kyree Oliver, the world’s leading masculinity coach featured on: FOX, CNBC, Inc., ABC, ESPN, MSN, NBC News, & CBS; for a thought-provoking discussion on personal transformation, relationships, and redefining masculinity. With a background in psychology and marketing, Kyree shares insights into what sets his coaching approach apart and why his clients seek him out after working with others.
The conversation dives into the balance between support and challenge, the power of storytelling in shaping identity, and the often-overlooked nuances of masculinity. Kyree and I explore the dynamics of relationships, the importance of authenticity, and the challenges of staying true to oneself in a world full of expectations. From navigating difficult conversations and setting boundaries to understanding the complexities of energy in relationships, this bonus episode offers a fresh perspective on what it means to grow and connect in today's world.
Whether you’re curious about the modern take on masculinity or looking for advice on personal growth and relationships, this episode is a must-listen. Don’t miss out on the powerful insights and practical advice that could change the way you see yourself and those around you.
Forever Speaking Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS
HOW DO I GET IN TOUCH WITH KYREE?
Website: https://www.kyree.com
Kyree's Course: The Man Inside: Personal Power Through Identity
Instagram: @kyree
YouTube: @Kyreeoliver94
TikTok: @kyreeoliver
Twitter: @kyreeoliver
Facebook: @kyreeoliver1994
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Oct 8, 2024
Oct 8, 2024
1hr 6 min
Dear Diary & Listeners,
I’d be lying if I said getting to this last episode of The Dichotomy Diaries was anything close to a walk in the park. In truth, it’s been a grueling journey—one that has required me to face the ashes of my past and find a way to rise above them. Starting and maintaining this podcast has been the single hardest thing I’ve done, forcing me to dissect my experiences and uncover the roots of my pain. Much like the haunting echoes in Illenium’s From the Ashes, I've wrestled with being broken down only to rise again. That song is close to my heart because, just as Phoenix shaped who I am today, it’s also where I became my most broken. It's ironic: Phoenix both created and nearly destroyed me.
As humans, we crave understanding. When faced with unanswered questions, we can either bury them or seek answers, no matter the cost. So, yes—I fucked around and found out, and I don't regret it. There were days I wanted to give up, to disappear from the internet entirely. But each day, I rose with purpose, determined to see this through. And while this process has been healing, it has also been intensely challenging, revealing both sadness and the joy of personal transformation.
Hosting this podcast has unintentionally filtered out the wrong people from my life—The Fuck Boy Filter, if you will. Those who approached me should have known that I have no patience for those who aren’t genuine or respectful. It's worked, more or less, but I have encountered some strange birds along the way. Thankfully, the DMs have slowed, and the wildest proposals now feel like a distant memory. Even better, the podcast has acted as a background check, a sort of litmus test for anyone new who enters my life.
I am so happy to mention that the new man in my life is beyond amazing. Though he respects my work and acknowledges my commitment, he hasn’t listened to a single episode. Initially, I was disappointed—it’s my art, after all. But then, I realized that not everyone needs to know every detail. True connection doesn’t need to know the scars in high definition; it can see the resilience in your eyes and recognize your strength without needing every gritty detail. I am positive that if he tuned in, he’d be fuming just a few minutes into the first episode. And honestly? I can’t blame him.
I hope this final episode brings you the closure it brought me. I hope you found value in listening to my journey, and if you did, I’d love to hear about it. My DMs are always open.
As I wrap up Season 1 of The Dichotomy Diaries, I find myself reflecting on all I’ve endured and overcome. There were countless times when I was faced with people trying to burn down everything I had worked to rebuild. To those who wanted to see me fall, here’s my response: What do you want from me tonight? You wanna burn down everything in sight? I’ve walked through the flames and emerged stronger, unafraid of what comes next.
Because I’ve realized I’m not just surviving this fire; I’m thriving in it. So go on, light your matches, and watch as I rise from the ashes.
Thank you for standing beside me in the fire. Season 2 awaits...
Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda L. Arnier, MLS
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Nov 11, 2024
Nov 11, 2024
2 min
Dear Diary & Listeners,
In this riveting Premiere Trailer for Season 2 of The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast, I will introduce you to Ashley Klemm—a woman whose story of love and betrayal is as intense as the storm rollin' in this season.
Ashley bares it all as she guides us through the highs of romance, the heartbreak of loss, and the devastation of manipulation, culminating in the harsh realities of a lengthy family court battle.
Brace yourselves for a raw and eye-opening journey that sets the tone for a season marked by turbulent truths and fierce resilience.
Forever Sharing Our Truths,
Amanda & Ashley
Connect with Ashley below:
Boudoir Photography Website
Send Nudes Podcast
Boudoir Photography Facebook
Boudoir Photography Instagram
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Feb 5, 2025
Feb 5, 2025
1hr 14 min
Dear Diary & Listeners,
There’s something unsettling about the way stories are told. Victims speak about their experiences. Predators speak about their victims.
When someone endures pain, betrayal, and manipulation, they share their story in an effort to heal, to be understood, to reclaim their truth. But the ones who inflicted that pain? They spend their time making sure you only hear their version of events. They rewrite history. They call their victims crazy, difficult, unstable—anything to discredit the person who knows exactly what they’ve done.
That’s why this episode is so important. Before you hear what happened to Ashley, you need to know who she is. The woman behind the story. Her background, her voice, her perspective—because understanding her as a human being is everything.
Once the truth unfolds, you’ll see why the people who try the hardest to silence victims are the ones with the most to hide.
Welcome to The Eye of the Storm...
Forever Speaking the Truth,Amanda Arnier, MLS
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Boudoir Photography Website
Send Nudes Podcast
Boudoir Photography Facebook
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Amanda Arnier
Podcast Host
Hi, I’m Amanda—let’s take a walk through my day.
First thing’s first: caffeine, floor cuddles & affirmations with my Great Danes, and a quick reality check that yes, I’m still obsessed with true crime podcasts. (this part will make sense more a little later)
By 10 a.m., I’m either deep in podcast recording mode, unraveling some of the wildest relationship drama you've ever heard, or prepping for the next episode of The Dichotomy Diaries—my little corner of the podcast world where I spill everything I’ve learned (and unlearned) about myself, love, manipulation, and finding your way out of some seriously dark places.
If you’re looking for credentials, I’ve got them. I hold two degrees from Arizona State University—because, you know, why not make life even more complex by adding Law School to the mix? But honestly, my real expertise comes from life itself. I’ve lived through more than a few “you can’t make this up” situations, and sharing those stories has become my lifeline—and hopefully, yours too.
Here’s what you need to know: this podcast is about me being real, and by real, I mean sharing my soul, my mess, and all the lessons that came from it. I was in a relationship that nearly broke me, but instead of hiding the shame, I decided to put it out there, raw and unfiltered. And while everyone thought I was nuts, this was how I reclaimed my power.
My gut told me this podcast was the key to healing, and, spoiler alert—it was right. Now, I use my story to connect with people like you, who’ve probably had their own share of “WTF?” moments in love.
So, stick around if you’re into some serious tea, unfiltered truths, lots of laughs, and maybe, just maybe, some healing along the way.
Random Facts
- I might as well be a dude when it comes to sports. I’m obsessed with F1, tennis, hockey, the NBA, and Roll Tide Alabama football. Bet I know more player stats than the guy you’re dating.
- My Great Danes, Carrera Miura are named after my favorite classic Lamborghini and Monza Firenze after my top bucket list F1 race and my favorite city in the entire world.
- Most days, I just want to escape to the woods, pitch a tent, and sip on some Coors Light by a fire with my dogs and my boyfriend. Moments over Materials.
- I’m completely self-taught in podcasting, from production to graphic design. If you see it or hear it, I did that shit myself.
- I’ve been listening to true crime podcasts since Serial debuted, and let me tell you, I never in a million years thought I would be the subject of a true crime documentary, let alone the host of a TOP 1.5% global podcast!
- I can belt out Andrea Bocelli, analyze Dante’s Inferno, and teach you some crazy history on pasta origins—I love my heritage!
My Why
The Dichotomy Diaries is where I lay it all out—everything in my soul. The good, the bad, the messy, the embarrassing—I hold nothing back. I knew deep down that I needed to rid myself of the shame I had carried from my past relationship. And while everyone around me thought sharing my story was a bad idea, I felt it in every fiber of my being that this was the only way I would truly heal from a wound that was so deep and intentional.
At a time when I couldn’t even trust my own judgment—after being manipulated and hurt by someone I believed deeply loved me—this podcast became my lifeline. It was the key to me learning to trust my gut again. Through telling these stories, I realized without a doubt that I knew exactly what I needed to do to save myself.
This podcast isn’t just about telling my story—it’s about reclaiming my power, finding my voice, and understanding that I’ve always had the strength within me. Sharing everything here has been my way of healing, and it’s proof that even when you think you can’t trust yourself, you absolutely can.
Ready to Share your Truth?
If you have been deeply affected by a close relationship and are ready and willing to help others by sharing your personal journey, I invite you to connect with me by clicking the link below. Your authentic experiences can help us shine a light on this complex issue, fostering understanding and healing for others.
By collecting real, unfiltered experiences, we can finally make a stride towards creating policy that protect us and future generations—because when it comes to The Courts, the power is in the numbers.
❤️Amanda