TRIGGER WARNING: This episode of The Dichotomy Diaries discusses sexual assault in detail. If this topic is triggering for you, please take care of yourself and consider skipping this episode.
 
Dear Diary & Listeners,
The past few months have been a serious struggle for me. I’ve been dragging my feet on wrapping up Season 1 of the podcast, stuck in this frustrating writers' block. No matter what I did, I just couldn’t get the creative juices flowing like I used to, keeping me up late into the night creating for you all.
I think I know what sparked the shift, but it’s still a bit confusing. I reconnected with someone who just gets my brain. Being around him feels amazing—safe, even. It’s like all the overthinking noise in my head quieted down for a change. But here’s the thing: I need challenges in my life to stay motivated. I thrive on goals to work toward every day. This podcast was that challenge for me. 
But as Season 1 wrapped up and I got to the final interview, I looked around and thought, “WTF? This is too easy now.” And you know what? The most unexpected challenge I found was in my own head. My new relationship is healthy and fulfilling, but I’m literally challenging my traumatized brain every day not to go off the deep end and screw it all up. Can you imagine that feeling? Being completely happy and fulfilled, yet your brain is like, “ABORT! Everyone's a liar!” It’s a wild ride.
Here’s the thing I didn’t know: there are people out there who see you struggling, who actually help and affirm your feelings, and who can take a horrible situation born from trauma and make it better. Yep, not worse—better.
So, that brings me to why I’m sharing what I’m sharing today. I’m going to take you back to something that happened to me about 11 years ago. It was traumatic then, and it still is to think about (I definitely had a few mini panic attacks while recording this—watch it on YouTube if you want to see how wild it was). I’ll walk you through one of my first Tinder dates, back when it was the hottest dating app out there.
As I always say, shame has no home inside me. I made some bad choices that put me in danger, and I need to own up to that. I want to share it with you so you can see, 1) we all make mistakes, 2) how serious those mistakes can be, 3) what you can do to avoid them, and 4) the tools you need to stay safe in this crazy dating world.
Maybe it’s because I feel safe, seen, and truly loved right now, but I really want to get this off my chest. I’m not going to lie, though—this is rough. It’s graphic, and if you have any issues with content related to sexual assault, I suggest you skip this episode.
As always, thanks for giving me a place to be 100% myself. Thank you for listening to me without judgment. You all keep me going. Oh, and PS: I’m so glad to be back on the mic.
Forever Sharing My Truth, 
Amanda 
 
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Dear Diary & Listeners,
In this episode of The Dichotomy Diaries, I welcome Kyree Oliver, the world’s leading masculinity coach featured on: FOX, CNBC, Inc., ABC, ESPN, MSN, NBC News, & CBS; for a thought-provoking discussion on personal transformation, relationships, and redefining masculinity. With a background in psychology and marketing, Kyree shares insights into what sets his coaching approach apart and why his clients seek him out after working with others.
The conversation dives into the balance between support and challenge, the power of storytelling in shaping identity, and the often-overlooked nuances of masculinity. Kyree and I explore the dynamics of relationships, the importance of authenticity, and the challenges of staying true to oneself in a world full of expectations. From navigating difficult conversations and setting boundaries to understanding the complexities of energy in relationships, this bonus episode offers a fresh perspective on what it means to grow and connect in today's world.
Whether you’re curious about the modern take on masculinity or looking for advice on personal growth and relationships, this episode is a must-listen. Don’t miss out on the powerful insights and practical advice that could change the way you see yourself and those around you.
 
Forever Speaking Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS
 
HOW DO I GET IN TOUCH WITH KYREE?
Website: https://www.kyree.com
Kyree's Course: The Man Inside: Personal Power Through Identity
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Dear Diary & Listeners,
I’d be lying if I said getting to this last episode of The Dichotomy Diaries was anything close to a walk in the park. In truth, it’s been a grueling journey—one that has required me to face the ashes of my past and find a way to rise above them. Starting and maintaining this podcast has been the single hardest thing I’ve done, forcing me to dissect my experiences and uncover the roots of my pain. Much like the haunting echoes in Illenium’s From the Ashes, I've wrestled with being broken down only to rise again. That song is close to my heart because, just as Phoenix shaped who I am today, it’s also where I became my most broken. It's ironic: Phoenix both created and nearly destroyed me.
As humans, we crave understanding. When faced with unanswered questions, we can either bury them or seek answers, no matter the cost. So, yes—I fucked around and found out, and I don't regret it. There were days I wanted to give up, to disappear from the internet entirely. But each day, I rose with purpose, determined to see this through. And while this process has been healing, it has also been intensely challenging, revealing both sadness and the joy of personal transformation.
Hosting this podcast has unintentionally filtered out the wrong people from my life—The Fuck Boy Filter, if you will. Those who approached me should have known that I have no patience for those who aren’t genuine or respectful. It's worked, more or less, but I have encountered some strange birds along the way. Thankfully, the DMs have slowed, and the wildest proposals now feel like a distant memory. Even better, the podcast has acted as a background check, a sort of litmus test for anyone new who enters my life.
I am so happy to mention that the new man in my life is beyond amazing. Though he respects my work and acknowledges my commitment, he hasn’t listened to a single episode. Initially, I was disappointed—it’s my art, after all. But then, I realized that not everyone needs to know every detail. True connection doesn’t need to know the scars in high definition; it can see the resilience in your eyes and recognize your strength without needing every gritty detail. I am positive that if he tuned in, he’d be fuming just a few minutes into the first episode. And honestly? I can’t blame him.
I hope this final episode brings you the closure it brought me. I hope you found value in listening to my journey, and if you did, I’d love to hear about it. My DMs are always open. 
As I wrap up Season 1 of The Dichotomy Diaries, I find myself reflecting on all I’ve endured and overcome. There were countless times when I was faced with people trying to burn down everything I had worked to rebuild. To those who wanted to see me fall, here’s my response: What do you want from me tonight? You wanna burn down everything in sight? I’ve walked through the flames and emerged stronger, unafraid of what comes next.
Because I’ve realized I’m not just surviving this fire; I’m thriving in it. So go on, light your matches, and watch as I rise from the ashes.
Thank you for standing beside me in the fire. Season 2 awaits...
Forever Speaking My Truth, 
Amanda L. Arnier, MLS
 
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Dear Diary & Listeners,
In this riveting Premiere Trailer for Season 2 of The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast, I will introduce you to Ashley Klemm—a woman whose story of love and betrayal is as intense as the storm rollin' in this season.
Ashley bares it all as she guides us through the highs of romance, the heartbreak of loss, and the devastation of manipulation, culminating in the harsh realities of a lengthy family court battle.
Brace yourselves for a raw and eye-opening journey that sets the tone for a season marked by turbulent truths and fierce resilience.
Forever Sharing Our Truths,
Amanda & Ashley
 
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Send Nudes Podcast
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Dear Diary & Listeners,
There’s something unsettling about the way stories are told. Victims speak about their experiences. Predators speak about their victims.
When someone endures pain, betrayal, and manipulation, they share their story in an effort to heal, to be understood, to reclaim their truth. But the ones who inflicted that pain? They spend their time making sure you only hear their version of events. They rewrite history. They call their victims crazy, difficult, unstable—anything to discredit the person who knows exactly what they’ve done.
That’s why this episode is so important. Before you hear what happened to Ashley, you need to know who she is. The woman behind the story. Her background, her voice, her perspective—because understanding her as a human being is everything.
Once the truth unfolds, you’ll see why the people who try the hardest to silence victims are the ones with the most to hide.
Welcome to The Eye of the Storm...
Forever Speaking the Truth,Amanda Arnier, MLS
 
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