Season 1

Dear Diary & Listeners,
I want to start off by saying Thank You. The Dichotomy Diaries has jumped insane numbers this past week and I have you all to thank for that. 
 
Episode 13 starts off with an overview...and maybe a little sneak peek.
 
The point that we are at in this story is went mentally things all go down hill for me. 
 
Naturally, this is taxing, but when I tell you it is C O M P L E T E L Y necessary- I mean it. 
 
I am constantly questioned on why I would choose to sit with the bad decisions and pain inflicted on me. It is a very simple answer I will repeat over and over again. TO PROCESS IT. 
 
Unprocessed trauma is and will always be the underlying reason for all the things that go wrong. Choosing to experience pain over immediate pleasure of ignorance takes a self-aware individual. 
 
Are you self-aware?
 
EP13 - Make a Wish is the story of my 32nd birthday in Arizona for Super Bowl Weekend & the Valentine's Day to follow. 
 
Here's a secret I never admitted to anyone ever...
 
Each birthday that I spent with Dick, my birthday wish as I blew out the candles was always the same. "Please Heavenly Father (what Mormons refer to God as), make things easier for my husband so that we can have a good life. 
 
I never wished for things to be easier for me. 
And that should tell you everything you need to know.
 
Enjoy and be sure to listen to the entire Outro for some additional sneak peeks that will reinvigorate the marathon listener in you...
 
Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS
 
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Dear Diary (& Listeners),
This episode is a total standout for me. I hardly ever get to geek out about Italian Literature and why it means so much to me. This week, I had this awesome "aha" moment while chatting about my absolute favorite piece of literature.
 
But hold on tight, 'cause things take a wild turn. We're talking a whopping $14k in medical bills, I manage to rip a door clean off its hinges (yeah, that happened), and guess what? Homelessness decided to make a guest appearance in my life for the first time... Life's got its own plans, right? Wrong. This wasn't fate or left to chance- this was strategic. Calculated.
 
So, grab your popcorn...this one gets GOOD.
 
Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS
 
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! 
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. 
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Dear Diary & Listeners,
The flood gates are open and the reflective thoughts are pouring in. 
 
Values. I've been talking a lot about family lately, but what about unique values I desire in a man? I know you'll be shocked to know...(sarcasm) that every single one of these unique values are dead opposite of Dick. 
 
It feels good to think for myself again. I finally have my present and future back. 
Le Sigh...
 
Now I just need to sleep more. 
 
Here's a few Unique Qualities I pulled from a list I wrote tonight...
 
Dick: Untrustworthy & Secretive
I Value: Mystery & Enigma
A mysterious aura adds an element of excitement and intrigue. I value a man who has the ability to keep a sense of mystery while still being open and vulnerable.
 
Dick: Weakness & Inability to Cope
I Value: Strength & Resilience
There is nothing sexier than physical and emotional strength to navigate challenges. A man who is humbly resilient in the face of adversity, reflecting a capacity to overcome obstacles.
 
Dick: Absence of Protective Instincts
I Value: Guardian-like Qualities
A man with protective instincts are key. Having the willingness to be a guardian and support in times of need. A sense of justice and the ability to stand up for what is right.
 
Dick: Disconnect from Spiritual & Emotional Depth
I Value: Spiritual Connection
My person has the capacity to connect on a deep, spiritual level while maintaining strong emotional intelligence and empathy for understanding and support of shared inner growth.
 
Dick: Predictable & Monotonous Behavior
I Value: Unpredictable Allure
An element of positive unpredictability that adds excitement to the relationship is a must. The distinct allure of this person should keeps the flame of passion perpetually burning. 
 
In Episode 15 I am officially homeless. Well- for a few days anyway. After Dick deploys an atomic bomb in Las Vegas, we are forced to seek refuge in Illinois. (Cue the Country Music) All is going well...I feel my nerves calming and an overwhelming sense of safety being around my family. 
It's short lived. SHOCKER. 
And guess what..? Dick recants yet another one of HIS decisions. You're going love Episode 15. Grab your popcorn y'all.
 
BEHOOVE THIS.
 
Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS
 
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! 
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. 
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Music: Ashley England
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Dear Diary & Listeners,
You ever just want to pack a bag, grab your dogs, and drive to the furthest possible corner of the map and DEEP exhale into the vast nothingness?
Yeah...Me too.
This is where I am this week.
After returning home from an exhausting work trip; the inevitable happened. 
I got sick. 
And when I say sick, I mean SICK. Influenza A got cha girl in a choke hold.
Bang, Bang.  I hit the ground. 
Today is the first day in almost a week that I am able to get out of bed and do life. 
So that's fun. 
And what better a story to lull myself to sleep tonight...than my own. 
In Episode 16 you'll join me as I cringingly beg Dick to come back home after abandoning me yet again for Las Vegas. Does he come back? Oh- you bet- but as always, I'm sure you'll never guess how this episode ends. 
Buckle your seatbelts. 
Bang, Bang. 
 
Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS
 
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! 
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. 
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Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
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Dear Diary & Listeners,
Stress has taught me a lot this year. 
I have learned that stress can be both debilitating AND motivating. 
I have learned that no one cares what is going on in your life; they expect you to keep it moving as usual- no matter the price. 
I have learned that while devastatingly debilitating at times; stress can sometimes be invisible to anyone other than yourself. 
 
So what do we do with this information?
 
Well- we learn of course. 
We learn how to manage our stress levels. 
We learn new tools to soften the blow it has on our activities of daily life. 
But we also learn that stress relief is NO ONES job, but our own. 
 
Episode 17 is ALL THE THINGS. 
You're going to hear the raunchy, the sad, the shocking, and of course- the heartbreaking...
So sit tight. 
OH- and if you're not fully prepared to hear some insanely gross sexual content...I would advise you to skip this episode. 
 
Shit's NASTYYYYYY up in here. 
 
Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS
 
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! 
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. 
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
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Dear Diary & Listeners,
While I had hoped the justice system would come through, it fell short, leaving me disappointed.
Did I get the justice I deserved?
Not at all.
My experiences were dismissed, making them seem like lies.
But does it matter in the grand scheme of things?
Also -Nope.
Why?
Because even if the court didn't see it, I know the truth, and now - so do you.
That feels like a win to me.
 
In Episode 18, I'll give you a quick rundown of my messy divorce court saga and share how I celebrated my birthday. Then, get ready for more drama as I spill the beans on the treachery leading up to my first wedding anniversary.
 
Buckle up—it's gonna be a wild ride!
 
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Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda L. Arnier, MLS
 
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! 
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. 
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
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Dear Diary & Listeners,
 
Welcome to the second to LAST episode in MY part of this tragic story. 
 
We've been on a wild ride together. 
 
But you know what...? 
There's no one else I would have rather taken this trip with. 
 
Episode 19 really needs no introduction, but I might as well give you a taste...
 
This is the episode where you find out how my marriage really ended. 
Yep. This is the one. 
 
I won't keep you waiting. 
 
Just please, don't forget.
 
One day, you wake up...and it just doesn't hurt anymore. 
 
I promise. 
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Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS
 
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! 
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. 
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
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Dear Diary & Listeners,
 
We made it! We survived. 
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Even though at times it may have seemed impossible, we are both stronger than we thought. 
 
This episode is the last episode in MY part of this story. 
 
And while I am going to miss sharing my experiences with you weekly, I feel this indescribable weight lifted off my shoulders that it is all FINALLY OVER.. 
 
The next part of The Dichotomy Diaries Season One has one main focus…
To help others share their truth, finally experience closure, and help countless others. 
 
Many times while recording this episode, I caught myself smiling. Stupidly proud of what I have created. Stupidly proud of my own personal growth and accelerated healing. 
 
But most importantly, stupidly proud that the woman I have become- is someone little 7 year old, ruby slipper wearing Amanda would be proud to become. 
 
While sometimes I feel down when reflecting on the path my life has taken; the pride I feel directly relating to my resilience supersedes all of it. 
 
In Episode 20, you will hear how my story ends. You will hear exactly how I uncovered all the other women Dick swindled in almost the exact same way. You will learn who’s interview comes first, as well as who to expect in the upcoming episodes. 
 
There’s No Place Like Home. Especially when you build home within yourself.
Be on the lookout for opportunities to interact with the upcoming guests on Instagram. 
 
Thank you all for your support and hanging in there during this difficult and trying story that was my life. I will be forever grateful and humbled by this extraordinary experience.
 
Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS
 
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY! 
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me. 
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
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