The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast

When host Amanda meets Dick, the charming Mormon man from Las Vegas relentlessly pursuing her via social media for months, she never could have imagined the whirlwind that would follow. What starts as a passionate romance quickly spirals into something far more sinister. The Dichotomy Diaries isn’t just about your “run-of-the-mill” divorce—it’s about seven women, all unknowingly connected by the same predator, sharing their raw, unfiltered stories of betrayal, manipulation, and abusive games disguised as love. Season One pulls back the curtain on The Dichotomy that is Dick; as Amanda and his other victims untangle the dark layers of deceit he’s woven. On the surface, he’s the charming, devoted Mormon, but beneath that facade lies a man entangled in the deeply hidden and taboo world of financial domination, secret escorting for men, and compulsive gambling. Together, these seven women expose not just the abusive games he played, but the resilience it takes to emerge from them. Join The Dichotomy Diaries as we dive into firsthand accounts of survival, twisted relationships, and the journey to rise from the ashes. These aren’t just stories—they’re proof that truth is often stranger than fiction.

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Amanda Arnier

Podcast Host

Hi, I’m Amanda—let’s take a walk through my day.

First thing’s first: caffeine, floor cuddles & affirmations with my Great Danes, and a quick reality check that yes, I’m still obsessed with true crime podcasts. (this part will make sense more a little later)

By 10 a.m., I’m either deep in podcast recording mode, unraveling some of the wildest relationship drama you've ever heard, or prepping for the next episode of The Dichotomy Diaries—my little corner of the podcast world where I spill everything I’ve learned (and unlearned) about myself, love, manipulation, and finding your way out of some seriously dark places.

If you’re looking for credentials, I’ve got them. I hold two degrees from Arizona State University—because, you know, why not make life even more complex by adding Law School to the mix? But honestly, my real expertise comes from life itself. I’ve lived through more than a few “you can’t make this up” situations, and sharing those stories has become my lifeline—and hopefully, yours too.

Here’s what you need to know: this podcast is about me being real, and by real, I mean sharing my soul, my mess, and all the lessons that came from it. I was in a relationship that nearly broke me, but instead of hiding the shame, I decided to put it out there, raw and unfiltered. And while everyone thought I was nuts, this was how I reclaimed my power.

My gut told me this podcast was the key to healing, and, spoiler alert—it was right. Now, I use my story to connect with people like you, who’ve probably had their own share of “WTF?” moments in love.

So, stick around if you’re into some serious tea, unfiltered truths, lots of laughs, and maybe, just maybe, some healing along the way.

Random Facts

- I might as well be a dude when it comes to sports. I’m obsessed with F1, tennis, hockey, the NBA, and Roll Tide Alabama football. Bet I know more player stats than the guy you’re dating.

- My Great Danes, Carrera Miura are named after my favorite classic Lamborghini and Monza Firenze after my top bucket list F1 race and my favorite city in the entire world.

- Most days, I just want to escape to the woods, pitch a tent, and sip on some Coors Light by a fire with my dogs and my boyfriend. Moments over Materials.

- I’m completely self-taught in podcasting, from production to graphic design. If you see it or hear it, I did that shit myself.

- I’ve been listening to true crime podcasts since Serial debuted, and let me tell you, I never in a million years thought I would be the subject of a true crime documentary, let alone the host of a TOP 1.5% global podcast!

- I can belt out Andrea Bocelli, analyze Dante’s Inferno, and teach you some crazy history on pasta origins—I love my heritage!

The Story Markets Itself...

What is Listen Score? Listen Score (LS) is a metric that shows the estimated popularity of this podcast compared to other rss-based public podcasts in the world on a scale from 0 to 100. The higher, the more popular. Calculated from 1st and 3rd party data. Updated monthly.

What is Global Rank? This podcast is one of the top 1.5% most popular shows out of 3,433,423 podcasts globally, ranked by Listen Score (the estimated popularity score).

My Why

The Dichotomy Diaries is where I lay it all out—everything in my soul. The good, the bad, the messy, the embarrassing—I hold nothing back. I knew deep down that I needed to rid myself of the shame I had carried from my past relationship. And while everyone around me thought sharing my story was a bad idea, I felt it in every fiber of my being that this was the only way I would truly heal from a wound that was so deep and intentional.

At a time when I couldn’t even trust my own judgment—after being manipulated and hurt by someone I believed deeply loved me—this podcast became my lifeline. It was the key to me learning to trust my gut again. Through telling these stories, I realized without a doubt that I knew exactly what I needed to do to save myself.

This podcast isn’t just about telling my story—it’s about reclaiming my power, finding my voice, and understanding that I’ve always had the strength within me. Sharing everything here has been my way of healing, and it’s proof that even when you think you can’t trust yourself, you absolutely can.

Episodes

Tuesday Jan 09, 2024

Make a Wish

Tuesday Jan 09, 2024

Dear Diary & Listeners,
I want to start off by saying Thank You. The Dichotomy Diaries has jumped insane numbers this past week and I have you all to thank for that.

Episode 13 starts off with an overview...and maybe a little sneak peek.

The point that we are at in this story is went mentally things all go down hill for me.

Naturally, this is taxing, but when I tell you it is C O M P L E T E L Y necessary- I mean it.

I am constantly questioned on why I would choose to sit with the bad decisions and pain inflicted on me. It is a very simple answer I will repeat over and over again. TO PROCESS IT.

Unprocessed trauma is and will always be the underlying reason for all the things that go wrong. Choosing to experience pain over immediate pleasure of ignorance takes a self-aware individual.

Are you self-aware?

EP13 - Make a Wish is the story of my 32nd birthday in Arizona for Super Bowl Weekend & the Valentine's Day to follow.

Here's a secret I never admitted to anyone ever...

Each birthday that I spent with Dick, my birthday wish as I blew out the candles was always the same. "Please Heavenly Father (what Mormons refer to God as), make things easier for my husband so that we can have a good life.

I never wished for things to be easier for me.
And that should tell you everything you need to know.

Enjoy and be sure to listen to the entire Outro for some additional sneak peeks that will reinvigorate the marathon listener in you...

Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS

WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
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Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
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Thursday Jan 18, 2024

Divina Commedia

Thursday Jan 18, 2024

Dear Diary (& Listeners),
This episode is a total standout for me. I hardly ever get to geek out about Italian Literature and why it means so much to me. This week, I had this awesome "aha" moment while chatting about my absolute favorite piece of literature.

But hold on tight, 'cause things take a wild turn. We're talking a whopping $14k in medical bills, I manage to rip a door clean off its hinges (yeah, that happened), and guess what? Homelessness decided to make a guest appearance in my life for the first time... Life's got its own plans, right? Wrong. This wasn't fate or left to chance- this was strategic. Calculated.

So, grab your popcorn...this one gets GOOD.

Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS

WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Wednesday Jan 24, 2024

Behoove This

Wednesday Jan 24, 2024

Dear Diary & Listeners,
The flood gates are open and the reflective thoughts are pouring in.

Values. I've been talking a lot about family lately, but what about unique values I desire in a man? I know you'll be shocked to know...(sarcasm) that every single one of these unique values are dead opposite of Dick.

It feels good to think for myself again. I finally have my present and future back.
Le Sigh...

Now I just need to sleep more.

Here's a few Unique Qualities I pulled from a list I wrote tonight...

Dick: Untrustworthy & Secretive
I Value: Mystery & Enigma
A mysterious aura adds an element of excitement and intrigue. I value a man who has the ability to keep a sense of mystery while still being open and vulnerable.

Dick: Weakness & Inability to Cope
I Value: Strength & Resilience
There is nothing sexier than physical and emotional strength to navigate challenges. A man who is humbly resilient in the face of adversity, reflecting a capacity to overcome obstacles.

Dick: Absence of Protective Instincts
I Value: Guardian-like Qualities
A man with protective instincts are key. Having the willingness to be a guardian and support in times of need. A sense of justice and the ability to stand up for what is right.

Dick: Disconnect from Spiritual & Emotional Depth
I Value: Spiritual Connection
My person has the capacity to connect on a deep, spiritual level while maintaining strong emotional intelligence and empathy for understanding and support of shared inner growth.

Dick: Predictable & Monotonous Behavior
I Value: Unpredictable Allure
An element of positive unpredictability that adds excitement to the relationship is a must. The distinct allure of this person should keeps the flame of passion perpetually burning.

In Episode 15 I am officially homeless. Well- for a few days anyway. After Dick deploys an atomic bomb in Las Vegas, we are forced to seek refuge in Illinois. (Cue the Country Music) All is going well...I feel my nerves calming and an overwhelming sense of safety being around my family.
It's short lived. SHOCKER.
And guess what..? Dick recants yet another one of HIS decisions. You're going love Episode 15. Grab your popcorn y'all.

BEHOOVE THIS.

Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS

WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Thursday Feb 01, 2024

Bang, Bang

Thursday Feb 01, 2024

Dear Diary & Listeners,
You ever just want to pack a bag, grab your dogs, and drive to the furthest possible corner of the map and DEEP exhale into the vast nothingness?
Yeah...Me too.
This is where I am this week.
After returning home from an exhausting work trip; the inevitable happened.
I got sick.
And when I say sick, I mean SICK. Influenza A got cha girl in a choke hold.
Bang, Bang. I hit the ground.
Today is the first day in almost a week that I am able to get out of bed and do life.
So that's fun.
And what better a story to lull myself to sleep tonight...than my own.
In Episode 16 you'll join me as I cringingly beg Dick to come back home after abandoning me yet again for Las Vegas. Does he come back? Oh- you bet- but as always, I'm sure you'll never guess how this episode ends.
Buckle your seatbelts.
Bang, Bang.

Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS

WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Tuesday Feb 06, 2024

Creampie Confessions

Tuesday Feb 06, 2024

Dear Diary & Listeners,
Stress has taught me a lot this year.
I have learned that stress can be both debilitating AND motivating.
I have learned that no one cares what is going on in your life; they expect you to keep it moving as usual- no matter the price.
I have learned that while devastatingly debilitating at times; stress can sometimes be invisible to anyone other than yourself.

So what do we do with this information?

Well- we learn of course.
We learn how to manage our stress levels.
We learn new tools to soften the blow it has on our activities of daily life.
But we also learn that stress relief is NO ONES job, but our own.

Episode 17 is ALL THE THINGS.
You're going to hear the raunchy, the sad, the shocking, and of course- the heartbreaking...
So sit tight.
OH- and if you're not fully prepared to hear some insanely gross sexual content...I would advise you to skip this episode.

Shit's NASTYYYYYY up in here.

Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS

WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Tuesday Feb 20, 2024

With Liberty & Justice for All

Tuesday Feb 20, 2024

Dear Diary & Listeners,
While I had hoped the justice system would come through, it fell short, leaving me disappointed.
Did I get the justice I deserved?
Not at all.
My experiences were dismissed, making them seem like lies.
But does it matter in the grand scheme of things?
Also -Nope.
Why?
Because even if the court didn't see it, I know the truth, and now - so do you.
That feels like a win to me.

In Episode 18, I'll give you a quick rundown of my messy divorce court saga and share how I celebrated my birthday. Then, get ready for more drama as I spill the beans on the treachery leading up to my first wedding anniversary.

Buckle up—it's gonna be a wild ride!

VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE!

Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda L. Arnier, MLS

WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Tuesday Feb 27, 2024

This Fuggin' Guy

Tuesday Feb 27, 2024

Dear Diary & Listeners,

Welcome to the second to LAST episode in MY part of this tragic story.

We've been on a wild ride together.

But you know what...?
There's no one else I would have rather taken this trip with.

Episode 19 really needs no introduction, but I might as well give you a taste...

This is the episode where you find out how my marriage really ended.
Yep. This is the one.

I won't keep you waiting.

Just please, don't forget.

One day, you wake up...and it just doesn't hurt anymore.

I promise.
VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE!

Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS

WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Tuesday Mar 05, 2024

Beyond The Rainbow

Tuesday Mar 05, 2024

Dear Diary & Listeners,

We made it! We survived.
VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE!

Even though at times it may have seemed impossible, we are both stronger than we thought.

This episode is the last episode in MY part of this story.

And while I am going to miss sharing my experiences with you weekly, I feel this indescribable weight lifted off my shoulders that it is all FINALLY OVER..

The next part of The Dichotomy Diaries Season One has one main focus…
To help others share their truth, finally experience closure, and help countless others.

Many times while recording this episode, I caught myself smiling. Stupidly proud of what I have created. Stupidly proud of my own personal growth and accelerated healing.

But most importantly, stupidly proud that the woman I have become- is someone little 7 year old, ruby slipper wearing Amanda would be proud to become.

While sometimes I feel down when reflecting on the path my life has taken; the pride I feel directly relating to my resilience supersedes all of it.

In Episode 20, you will hear how my story ends. You will hear exactly how I uncovered all the other women Dick swindled in almost the exact same way. You will learn who’s interview comes first, as well as who to expect in the upcoming episodes.

There’s No Place Like Home. Especially when you build home within yourself.
Be on the lookout for opportunities to interact with the upcoming guests on Instagram.

Thank you all for your support and hanging in there during this difficult and trying story that was my life. I will be forever grateful and humbled by this extraordinary experience.

Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS

WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Ready to Share your Truth?

If you have been deeply affected by a close relationship and are ready and willing to help others by sharing your personal journey, I invite you to connect with me by clicking the link below. Your authentic experiences can help us shine a light on this complex issue, fostering understanding and healing for others.

By collecting real, unfiltered experiences, we can finally make a stride towards creating policy that protect us and future generations—because when it comes to The Courts, the power is in the numbers.

Schedule Your Call Today!

❤️Amanda