The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast

Prepare to be captivated by The Dichotomy Diaries, an invitation to embark on an extraordinary journey through a web of eerily similar firsthand accounts. Brace yourself for tales of manipulation, domestic turmoil, narcissistic intrigue, and financial deceit—all driven by the intoxicating illusion of love. In Season One, you’ll be introduced to nine remarkable women, each unaware of their shared connection: the enigmatic figure who upended their lives. Dive headfirst into their stories, commencing in the present day, as one courageous wife & host Amanda Arnier, navigates the treacherous waters of a chaotic divorce. Along the way, she unravels a trail of women left in her husband’s turbulent wake. This is a narrative that delves deep, exposing the shadowy underbelly of financial domination, escorting, and compulsive gambling, all concealed beneath the veneer of a seemingly perfect partner. Join us on a journey that will both shock and inspire, as we explore the complexities of love’s dichotomy and the resilience of those who emerge from its depths. Instagram: @TheDichotomyDiaries & @Manda.Miura TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: @TheDichotomyDiaries

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The Why

Welcome to "The Dichotomy Diaries"; the podcast where survivors find their voices and share their experiences. Join us as we delve into the gripping and often heart-wrenching firsthand accounts of those who have faced the devastating effects of narcissistic abuse head-on.

In each episode, we provide a safe and empowering space for victims to recount their personal experiences, shedding light on the manipulative tactics, emotional turmoil, and psychological trauma they endured. These unfiltered narratives are a testament to the strength and resilience of survivors, as they bravely open up about their journeys from darkness to healing.

Our podcast goes beyond the surface to expose the insidious nature of narcissistic abuse, creating awareness around a topic that has long been hidden in the shadows. By sharing these stories, we aim to educate, inform, and empower both survivors and listeners, fostering a deeper understanding of the intricate dynamics at play in these toxic relationships.

"The Dichotomy Diaries" is not only a platform for storytelling; it’s a community of support and validation for those who have suffered. Through the shared experiences of our guests and listeners, we strive to foster a sense of unity, connection, and healing. As each survivor speaks their truth, they contribute to the collective journey toward recovery, reminding us all that we are not alone in our struggles.

Whether you’re a survivor seeking solace, a friend or family member looking to comprehend the impact of narcissistic abuse, or simply a curious listener eager to expand your awareness, this podcast offers something invaluable. Join us as we break down the barriers of silence, challenge the stereotypes, and provide a beacon of hope for a future free from the chains of narcissistic abuse.

Subscribe to "The Dichotomy Diaries" and be a part of our mission to turn pain into strength, darkness into light, and stories into sources of empowerment. Together, we heal, grow, and chart a path toward a life defined by authenticity, resilience, and reclaimed power.

About Your Host

Meet Amanda Arnier, a driven 32-year-old Great Dane Mom with a B.S. and a MLS from Arizona State University who stands at the intersection of knowledge and compassion. With a strong desire to make a positive impact on people's lives, her journey is one of transformation, resilience, and advocacy.

Drawing from her academic background, Amanda's passion for helping others has taken an unexpected turn. Through her podcast, "The Dichotomy Diaries" she offers a brave and raw exploration of her own experiences. Amanda's path has been marked by challenges and setbacks, which she now realizes hold the key to helping others find their own strength and clarity.

Her candid approach reflects Amanda's unwavering commitment to shining a light on the shadows we often keep hidden. Despite her initial reluctance to confront her own failures, she's discovered that by sharing her own personal struggles, she can inspire others to do the same. Amanda knows that vulnerability can be a powerful catalyst for healing and growth, and she uses her platform to foster a sense of unity among survivors.

Amanda's dedication to advocating for others has always been at the core of who she is. Known among her close friends and family as a fierce advocate for those trapped in abusive relationships, she has found herself confronting a reality she never thought she would face firsthand. Ironically, her love for true crime podcasts, once a source of intrigue, has now informed her own life journey in unforeseen ways.

Through "The Dichotomy Diaries", Amanda combines her love for writing with her passion for justice. Her hope is that through authentic storytelling and her affinity for truth, a safe space will be created for others to share their stories. By giving voice to the silent pain of others, Amanda aims to dismantle the isolation that often accompanies trauma. She believes that shared experiences are a potent remedy for healing, and she guides her listeners toward a place of empowerment and understanding.

As a survivor and advocate, Amanda Arnier takes her personal narrative and transforms it into a beacon of hope for those who have felt alone in their struggles. Tune in to "The Dichotomy Diaries" and join Amanda and others on a journey of exploration, revelation, and collective healing.

Episodes

Tuesday Feb 06, 2024

S1:E17 - Creampie Confessions

Tuesday Feb 06, 2024

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Dear Diary (& Listeners),
Stress has taught me a lot this year.
I have learned that stress can be both debilitating AND motivating.
I have learned that no one cares what is going on in your life; they expect you to keep it moving as usual- no matter the price.
I have learned that while devastatingly debilitating at times; stress can sometimes be invisible to anyone other than yourself.

So what do we do with this information?

Well- we learn of course.
We learn how to manage our stress levels.
We learn new tools to soften the blow it has on our activities of daily life.
But we also learn that stress relief is NO ONES job, but our own.

Episode 17 is ALL THE THINGS.
You're going to hear the raunchy, the sad, the shocking, and of course- the heartbreaking...
So sit tight.
OH- and if you're not fully prepared to hear some insanely gross sexual content...I would advise you to skip this episode.

Shit's NASTYYYYYY up in here.

Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS

WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
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Tuesday Feb 20, 2024

S1:E18 - With Liberty & Justice for All

Tuesday Feb 20, 2024

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Dear Diary (& Listeners),
While I had hoped the justice system would come through, it fell short, leaving me disappointed.
Did I get the justice I deserved?
Not at all.
My experiences were dismissed, making them seem like lies.
But does it matter in the grand scheme of things?
Also -Nope.
Why?
Because even if the court didn't see it, I know the truth, and now - so do you.
That feels like a win to me.

In Episode 18, I'll give you a quick rundown of my messy divorce court saga and share how I celebrated my birthday. Then, get ready for more drama as I spill the beans on the treachery leading up to my first wedding anniversary.

Buckle up—it's gonna be a wild ride!

VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE!

Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda L. Arnier, MLS

WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
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Tuesday Feb 27, 2024

S1:E19 - This Fuggin' Guy

Tuesday Feb 27, 2024

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Dear Diary (& Listeners),

Welcome to the second to LAST episode in MY part of this tragic story.

We've been on a wild ride together.

But you know what...?
There's no one else I would have rather taken this trip with.

Episode 19 really needs no introduction, but I might as well give you a taste...

This is the episode where you find out how my marriage really ended.
Yep. This is the one.

I won't keep you waiting.

Just please, don't forget.

One day, you wake up...and it just doesn't hurt anymore.

I promise.
VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE!

Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS

WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Tuesday Mar 05, 2024

S1:E20 - Beyond The Rainbow

Tuesday Mar 05, 2024

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Dear Diary (& Listeners),

We made it! We survived.
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Even though at times it may have seemed impossible, we are both stronger than we thought.

This episode is the last episode in MY part of this story.

And while I am going to miss sharing my experiences with you weekly, I feel this indescribable weight lifted off my shoulders that it is all FINALLY OVER..

The next part of The Dichotomy Diaries Season One has one main focus…
To help others share their truth, finally experience closure, and help countless others.

Many times while recording this episode, I caught myself smiling. Stupidly proud of what I have created. Stupidly proud of my own personal growth and accelerated healing.

But most importantly, stupidly proud that the woman I have become- is someone little 7 year old, ruby slipper wearing Amanda would be proud to become.

While sometimes I feel down when reflecting on the path my life has taken; the pride I feel directly relating to my resilience supersedes all of it.

In Episode 20, you will hear how my story ends. You will hear exactly how I uncovered all the other women Dick swindled in almost the exact same way. You will learn who’s interview comes first, as well as who to expect in the upcoming episodes.

There’s No Place Like Home. Especially when you build home within yourself.
Be on the lookout for opportunities to interact with the upcoming guests on Instagram.

Thank you all for your support and hanging in there during this difficult and trying story that was my life. I will be forever grateful and humbled by this extraordinary experience.

Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS

WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Tuesday Mar 12, 2024

S1:E21 - [KYLE'S STORY] For The Plot: Part 1

Tuesday Mar 12, 2024

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Dear Diary (& Listeners),
You are now entering the part of The Dichotomy Diaries I like to refer to as...
THE INTERVIEWS
Everyone you will hear from, from this point forward is someone who had a first hand relationship with the monster that I married.
What my guests will be sharing will be FACTUAL, raw, and chronological.
You will also get an opportunity to ask guests of The Dichotomy Diaries questions in between the different parts of their episodes...
Please submit your questions in a DM on @TheDichotomyDiaries Instagram or directly to Email at TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
First up, we have Kyle. A wonderfully warm and chatty gentleman from Phoenix, AZ who saw through Dick's facade faster than most; but played along- because the P L O T was just too juicy.
Please don't forget to rate, review, share, and comment. Your interactions get The Dichotomy Diaries noticed. Thank you for your continued support as always.

VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE!

Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS

WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Guest: "Kyle"
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries
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Wednesday Mar 20, 2024

S1:E22 - [KYLE'S STORY] For The Plot: Part 2

Wednesday Mar 20, 2024

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Dear Diary (& Listeners),
We're back with Kyle for Part Two!

I want to extend my greatest gratitude out to Kyle for sharing his story with us.

It was so wonderful to hear from another person with similar experiences. This validates me in my truth and I hope so many more of you in your own.

I know you've waited alllll day.

So here you go. Let's get to it!

VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE!

Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Guest: "Kyle"
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries
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Tuesday Mar 26, 2024

S1:E23 - A Lil' Update

Tuesday Mar 26, 2024

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Dear Diary (& Listeners),

Per your request, I have chosen to break up the interviews with solo update episodes.

Here is a fun update. Well- fun in terms of entertainment I guess.

What you'll hear today had me shook.

Thanks for letting me share and be vulnerable with you. I am forever grateful...

Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Lynette Arnier, MLS

VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE!

WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Guest: SOLO
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
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Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
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Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
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Tuesday Apr 09, 2024

S1:B2 - [BONUS] Total Eclipse of the Heart

Tuesday Apr 09, 2024

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Dear Diary (& Loyal Listeners),
Today's solar eclipse reminds us of the beauty that can be found in life's uncertainties, prompting a brief ONE WEEK hiatus for The Dichotomy Diaries.
(I KNOWWWWWWW)
I'm grappling with personal challenges, including family matters and financial stress to the MAX.
I feel guilty for deviating from our schedule, trust me.
However, quality remains paramount as we anticipate new global listeners via a very exciting opportunity.
During this brief break, I'll address these challenges and return with content that exceeds expectations.
On a brighter note, our first interviewee, Joanna, will be introduced via social media before her episode goes live with Part One on April 16th and Part Two on April 23rd.
Your patience and support are appreciated as we navigate life's curveballs.
Thank you for understanding.
Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS
VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE!
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Guest: SOLO
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries
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Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Tuesday Apr 16, 2024

S1:E24 - [JOANNA'S STORY] Houston, We Have a Squatter: Part 1

Tuesday Apr 16, 2024

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Dear Listeners,
In this compelling episode, Amanda sits down with Joanna to delve into her personal journey with a former partner who, coincidentally, they both know.
Joanna candidly shares the story of their meeting, the subtle early signs of manipulation she noticed, and the profound impact it had on her life.
Both Amanda and Joanna hope that by sharing this story, it will provide solace to others and illuminate the realities of narcissistic abuse. They explore the characteristics of women often targeted by narcissists and the manipulative tactics they employ.
From the outset, Joanna's father had reservations about Dick. Yet, Dick managed to maintain a convincing facade, impressing Joanna's family to some extent.
As circumstances would have it, Joanna found herself becoming roommates with Dick, eventually leading to an "exclusive" relationship...or so she thought.
The relationship seemed picture-perfect on social media, providing Joanna with a sense of security. However, this facade crumbled when she began receiving messages about Dick's inappropriate behavior.
Joanna soon recognized that Dick had used his Mormon faith as yet another tool for manipulation.
In addition to this, Joanna discovered some of Dick's unconventional side hustles, one of which even surprised Amanda.
Much like Amanda, Joanna found herself trapped in a trauma bond with Dick, experiencing lies, abandonment, verbal abuse, and coercion firsthand.
VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE!
Please give Joanna a follow & support her business!
Personal Instagram: @_joannahans
Business Instagram: @livingbreadbakehouse
TikTok: @joanna.hans
Business Website: https://www.joannahans.com

WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Guest: Joanna Hans
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries
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Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Thursday Apr 25, 2024

S1:E25 - [JOANNA'S STORY] Houston, We Have a Squatter: Part 2

Thursday Apr 25, 2024

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Dear Listeners,
In this segment of the conversation, Joanna and Amanda delve into the intricate dynamics of Joanna's relationship with her ex-partner, Dick.
They explore Dick's isolated lifestyle, his fixation on fitness and steroid use, as well as his troubling control over Joanna's diet and body image. Furthermore, they shed light on his neglectful behavior as a father to his daughter.
The discussion also touches upon Dick's manipulative tactics, including his skillful redirection during arguments and exploitation of Joanna's talents and creativity.
Joanna bravely shares her profound sense of entrapment and manipulation in the relationship, detailing the emotional and physical abuse she endured. She recounts harrowing experiences, including a violent incident where Dick attempted to suffocate her.
Amidst the darkness, Joanna opens up about her journey to healing and the pivotal role therapy played in her recovery process.
Follow Joanna and support her business ventures through the links below:
Personal Instagram: @_joannahans Business Instagram: @livingbreadbakehouse TikTok: @joanna.hans Business Website: https://www.joannahans.com

WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Guest: Joanna Hans
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

The Dichotomy Diaries

If you or someone you're acquainted with has been profoundly impacted by Narcissistic Abuse and wishes to share their personal journey, we invite you to connect with us by clicking the link below. Your authentic experiences can contribute to our mission of shedding light on this complex issue and fostering understanding and healing.

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