Jan 24, 2024
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The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast
When host Amanda meets Dick—a seemingly charming Mormon man from Las Vegas who pursued her relentlessly on social media—she had no idea the chaos that was about to unfold. What began as a whirlwind romance quickly unraveled into something far more disturbing.
Season One of The Dichotomy Diaries pulls back the curtain on the man behind the mask. What appears to be a devoted husband and religious man is, in truth, a compulsive liar entangled in financial domination, secret escorting for men, and a web of manipulation that left a trail of broken women. This season follows Amanda and six other unsuspecting women, all connected by the same predator, as they share their raw, unfiltered stories of betrayal, coercive control, and the strength it took to survive him.
New victims of Dick continue to surface regularly. On average, The Dichotomy Diaries has helped at least one woman per month recognize the red flags, escape the manipulation, and avoid becoming the next chapter in this chilling story.
But the story doesn’t stop there. Each subsequent season of The Dichotomy Diaries centers around a new brave individual who chose to speak their truth—shedding light on toxic relationships, the psychology of abuse, and what it really means to reclaim your voice.
These aren’t just stories. They’re a warning, a mirror, and a testament to the power of truth. Because sometimes, real life is darker—and more unbelievable—than fiction.
Episodes
Episodes
Feb 1, 2024
Feb 1, 2024
54 min
Dear Diary & Listeners,
You ever just want to pack a bag, grab your dogs, and drive to the furthest possible corner of the map and DEEP exhale into the vast nothingness?
Yeah...Me too.
This is where I am this week.
After returning home from an exhausting work trip; the inevitable happened.
I got sick.
And when I say sick, I mean SICK. Influenza A got cha girl in a choke hold.
Bang, Bang. I hit the ground.
Today is the first day in almost a week that I am able to get out of bed and do life.
So that's fun.
And what better a story to lull myself to sleep tonight...than my own.
In Episode 16 you'll join me as I cringingly beg Dick to come back home after abandoning me yet again for Las Vegas. Does he come back? Oh- you bet- but as always, I'm sure you'll never guess how this episode ends.
Buckle your seatbelts.
Bang, Bang.
Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
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Feb 6, 2024
Feb 6, 2024
1hr 25 min
Dear Diary & Listeners,
Stress has taught me a lot this year.
I have learned that stress can be both debilitating AND motivating.
I have learned that no one cares what is going on in your life; they expect you to keep it moving as usual- no matter the price.
I have learned that while devastatingly debilitating at times; stress can sometimes be invisible to anyone other than yourself.
So what do we do with this information?
Well- we learn of course.
We learn how to manage our stress levels.
We learn new tools to soften the blow it has on our activities of daily life.
But we also learn that stress relief is NO ONES job, but our own.
Episode 17 is ALL THE THINGS.
You're going to hear the raunchy, the sad, the shocking, and of course- the heartbreaking...
So sit tight.
OH- and if you're not fully prepared to hear some insanely gross sexual content...I would advise you to skip this episode.
Shit's NASTYYYYYY up in here.
Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast
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Feb 20, 2024
Feb 20, 2024
1hr 23 min
Dear Diary & Listeners,
While I had hoped the justice system would come through, it fell short, leaving me disappointed.
Did I get the justice I deserved?
Not at all.
My experiences were dismissed, making them seem like lies.
But does it matter in the grand scheme of things?
Also -Nope.
Why?
Because even if the court didn't see it, I know the truth, and now - so do you.
That feels like a win to me.
In Episode 18, I'll give you a quick rundown of my messy divorce court saga and share how I celebrated my birthday. Then, get ready for more drama as I spill the beans on the treachery leading up to my first wedding anniversary.
Buckle up—it's gonna be a wild ride!
VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE!
Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda L. Arnier, MLS
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
Feb 27, 2024
Feb 27, 2024
59 min
Dear Diary & Listeners,
Welcome to the second to LAST episode in MY part of this tragic story.
We've been on a wild ride together.
But you know what...?
There's no one else I would have rather taken this trip with.
Episode 19 really needs no introduction, but I might as well give you a taste...
This is the episode where you find out how my marriage really ended.
Yep. This is the one.
I won't keep you waiting.
Just please, don't forget.
One day, you wake up...and it just doesn't hurt anymore.
I promise.
VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE!
Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
Mar 5, 2024
Mar 5, 2024
51 min
Dear Diary & Listeners,
We made it! We survived.
VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE!
Even though at times it may have seemed impossible, we are both stronger than we thought.
This episode is the last episode in MY part of this story.
And while I am going to miss sharing my experiences with you weekly, I feel this indescribable weight lifted off my shoulders that it is all FINALLY OVER..
The next part of The Dichotomy Diaries Season One has one main focus…
To help others share their truth, finally experience closure, and help countless others.
Many times while recording this episode, I caught myself smiling. Stupidly proud of what I have created. Stupidly proud of my own personal growth and accelerated healing.
But most importantly, stupidly proud that the woman I have become- is someone little 7 year old, ruby slipper wearing Amanda would be proud to become.
While sometimes I feel down when reflecting on the path my life has taken; the pride I feel directly relating to my resilience supersedes all of it.
In Episode 20, you will hear how my story ends. You will hear exactly how I uncovered all the other women Dick swindled in almost the exact same way. You will learn who’s interview comes first, as well as who to expect in the upcoming episodes.
There’s No Place Like Home. Especially when you build home within yourself.
Be on the lookout for opportunities to interact with the upcoming guests on Instagram.
Thank you all for your support and hanging in there during this difficult and trying story that was my life. I will be forever grateful and humbled by this extraordinary experience.
Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
Mar 12, 2024
Mar 12, 2024
1hr 5 min
Dear Diary & Listeners,
You are now entering the part of The Dichotomy Diaries I like to refer to as...
THE INTERVIEWS
Everyone you will hear from, from this point forward is someone who had a first hand relationship with the monster that I married.
What my guests will be sharing will be FACTUAL, raw, and chronological.
You will also get an opportunity to ask guests of The Dichotomy Diaries questions in between the different parts of their episodes...
Please submit your questions in a DM on @TheDichotomyDiaries Instagram or directly to Email at TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
First up, we have Kyle. A wonderfully warm and chatty gentleman from Phoenix, AZ who saw through Dick's facade faster than most; but played along- because the P L O T was just too juicy.
Please don't forget to rate, review, share, and comment. Your interactions get The Dichotomy Diaries noticed. Thank you for your continued support as always.
VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE!
Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Guest: "Kyle"
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
Mar 20, 2024
Mar 20, 2024
1hr 8 min
Dear Diary & Listeners,
We're back with Kyle for Part Two!
I want to extend my greatest gratitude out to Kyle for sharing his story with us.
It was so wonderful to hear from another person with similar experiences. This validates me in my truth and I hope so many more of you in your own.
I know you've waited alllll day.
So here you go. Let's get to it!
VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE!
Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Guest: "Kyle"
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
Mar 26, 2024
Mar 26, 2024
41 min
Dear Diary & Listeners,
Per your request, I have chosen to break up the interviews with solo update episodes.
Here is a fun update. Well- fun in terms of entertainment I guess.
What you'll hear today had me shook.
Thanks for letting me share and be vulnerable with you. I am forever grateful...
Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Lynette Arnier, MLS
VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE!
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Guest: SOLO
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
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Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries
Amanda Arnier
Podcast Host
Hi, I’m Amanda—let’s take a walk through my day.
First thing’s first: caffeine, floor cuddles & affirmations with my Great Danes, and a quick reality check that yes, I’m still obsessed with true crime podcasts. (this part will make sense more a little later)
By 10 a.m., I’m either deep in podcast recording mode, unraveling some of the wildest relationship drama you've ever heard, or prepping for the next episode of The Dichotomy Diaries—my little corner of the podcast world where I spill everything I’ve learned (and unlearned) about myself, love, manipulation, and finding your way out of some seriously dark places.
If you’re looking for credentials, I’ve got them. I hold two degrees from Arizona State University—because, you know, why not make life even more complex by adding Law School to the mix? But honestly, my real expertise comes from life itself. I’ve lived through more than a few “you can’t make this up” situations, and sharing those stories has become my lifeline—and hopefully, yours too.
Here’s what you need to know: this podcast is about me being real, and by real, I mean sharing my soul, my mess, and all the lessons that came from it. I was in a relationship that nearly broke me, but instead of hiding the shame, I decided to put it out there, raw and unfiltered. And while everyone thought I was nuts, this was how I reclaimed my power.
My gut told me this podcast was the key to healing, and, spoiler alert—it was right. Now, I use my story to connect with people like you, who’ve probably had their own share of “WTF?” moments in love.
So, stick around if you’re into some serious tea, unfiltered truths, lots of laughs, and maybe, just maybe, some healing along the way.
Random Facts
- I might as well be a dude when it comes to sports. I’m obsessed with F1, tennis, hockey, the NBA, and Roll Tide Alabama football. Bet I know more player stats than the guy you’re dating.
- My Great Danes, Carrera Miura are named after my favorite classic Lamborghini and Monza Firenze after my top bucket list F1 race and my favorite city in the entire world.
- Most days, I just want to escape to the woods, pitch a tent, and sip on some Coors Light by a fire with my dogs and my boyfriend. Moments over Materials.
- I’m completely self-taught in podcasting, from production to graphic design. If you see it or hear it, I did that shit myself.
- I’ve been listening to true crime podcasts since Serial debuted, and let me tell you, I never in a million years thought I would be the subject of a true crime documentary, let alone the host of a TOP 1.5% global podcast!
- I can belt out Andrea Bocelli, analyze Dante’s Inferno, and teach you some crazy history on pasta origins—I love my heritage!
My Why
The Dichotomy Diaries is where I lay it all out—everything in my soul. The good, the bad, the messy, the embarrassing—I hold nothing back. I knew deep down that I needed to rid myself of the shame I had carried from my past relationship. And while everyone around me thought sharing my story was a bad idea, I felt it in every fiber of my being that this was the only way I would truly heal from a wound that was so deep and intentional.
At a time when I couldn’t even trust my own judgment—after being manipulated and hurt by someone I believed deeply loved me—this podcast became my lifeline. It was the key to me learning to trust my gut again. Through telling these stories, I realized without a doubt that I knew exactly what I needed to do to save myself.
This podcast isn’t just about telling my story—it’s about reclaiming my power, finding my voice, and understanding that I’ve always had the strength within me. Sharing everything here has been my way of healing, and it’s proof that even when you think you can’t trust yourself, you absolutely can.
Ready to Share your Truth?
If you have been deeply affected by a close relationship and are ready and willing to help others by sharing your personal journey, I invite you to connect with me by clicking the link below. Your authentic experiences can help us shine a light on this complex issue, fostering understanding and healing for others.
By collecting real, unfiltered experiences, we can finally make a stride towards creating policy that protect us and future generations—because when it comes to The Courts, the power is in the numbers.
❤️Amanda