Apr 9, 2024
Total Eclipse of the Heart
The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast
When host Amanda meets Dick—a seemingly charming Mormon man from Las Vegas who pursued her relentlessly on social media—she had no idea the chaos that was about to unfold. What began as a whirlwind romance quickly unraveled into something far more disturbing.
Season One of The Dichotomy Diaries pulls back the curtain on the man behind the mask. What appears to be a devoted husband and religious man is, in truth, a compulsive liar entangled in financial domination, secret escorting for men, and a web of manipulation that left a trail of broken women. This season follows Amanda and six other unsuspecting women, all connected by the same predator, as they share their raw, unfiltered stories of betrayal, coercive control, and the strength it took to survive him.
New victims of Dick continue to surface regularly. On average, The Dichotomy Diaries has helped at least one woman per month recognize the red flags, escape the manipulation, and avoid becoming the next chapter in this chilling story.
But the story doesn’t stop there. Each subsequent season of The Dichotomy Diaries centers around a new brave individual who chose to speak their truth—shedding light on toxic relationships, the psychology of abuse, and what it really means to reclaim your voice.
These aren’t just stories. They’re a warning, a mirror, and a testament to the power of truth. Because sometimes, real life is darker—and more unbelievable—than fiction.
Episodes
Episodes
Apr 16, 2024
Apr 16, 2024
1hr 22 min
Dear Diary & Listeners,
In this compelling episode, Amanda sits down with Joanna to delve into her personal journey with a former partner who, coincidentally, they both know.
Joanna candidly shares the story of their meeting, the subtle early signs of manipulation she noticed, and the profound impact it had on her life.
Both Amanda and Joanna hope that by sharing this story, it will provide solace to others and illuminate the realities of narcissistic abuse. They explore the characteristics of women often targeted by narcissists and the manipulative tactics they employ.
From the outset, Joanna's father had reservations about Dick. Yet, Dick managed to maintain a convincing facade, impressing Joanna's family to some extent.
As circumstances would have it, Joanna found herself becoming roommates with Dick, eventually leading to an "exclusive" relationship...or so she thought.
The relationship seemed picture-perfect on social media, providing Joanna with a sense of security. However, this facade crumbled when she began receiving messages about Dick's inappropriate behavior.
Joanna soon recognized that Dick had used his Mormon faith as yet another tool for manipulation.
In addition to this, Joanna discovered some of Dick's unconventional side hustles, one of which even surprised Amanda.
Much like Amanda, Joanna found herself trapped in a trauma bond with Dick, experiencing lies, abandonment, verbal abuse, and coercion firsthand.
VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE!
Please give Joanna a follow & support her business!
Personal Instagram: @_joannahans
Business Instagram: @livingbreadbakehouse
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Business Website: https://www.joannahans.com
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If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Guest: Joanna Hans
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
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Apr 25, 2024
Apr 25, 2024
1hr 11 min
Dear Diary & Listeners,
In this segment of the conversation, Joanna and Amanda delve into the intricate dynamics of Joanna's relationship with her ex-partner, Dick.
They explore Dick's isolated lifestyle, his fixation on fitness and steroid use, as well as his troubling control over Joanna's diet and body image. Furthermore, they shed light on his neglectful behavior as a father to his daughter.
The discussion also touches upon Dick's manipulative tactics, including his skillful redirection during arguments and exploitation of Joanna's talents and creativity.
Joanna bravely shares her profound sense of entrapment and manipulation in the relationship, detailing the emotional and physical abuse she endured. She recounts harrowing experiences, including a violent incident where Dick attempted to suffocate her.
Amidst the darkness, Joanna opens up about her journey to healing and the pivotal role therapy played in her recovery process.
Follow Joanna and support her business ventures through the links below:
Personal Instagram: @_joannahans Business Instagram: @livingbreadbakehouse TikTok: @joanna.hans Business Website: https://www.joannahans.com
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Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Guest: Joanna Hans
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
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May 2, 2024
May 2, 2024
1hr 43 min
Dear Diary & Listeners,
In this deep and insightful conversation, Rohanna and I explore Rohanna’s multifaceted life experiences, touching on her early life on Whidbey Island, her journey through homeschooling, and her early marriage. Rohanna also shares about her collaborative natural body care business with her mom in the Pacific Northwest, and the beauty of living near the orcas.
The conversation shifts to more personal themes, delving into Rohanna’s past narcissistic relationship with you guessed it....Dick. The revelations of abuse begin to align with the healing power of storytelling as we both reflect on the importance of empathy, accountability, and reciprocity. We candidly discuss the dynamics of different relationships, from familial to romantic, highlighting the lessons learned about safety, trust, and maintaining one’s individuality.
Throughout, Rohanna hopes her openness helps others feel less alone, emphasizing the strength found in shared stories and the support of true friendship- an amazing byproduct of Dick's treacherous ways.
Please give Rohanna a follow and support her business:
https://www.sweetsistersbodycare.com
Business Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/sweetsistersbodycare
Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/wildonefit
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Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Guest: Rohanna Wildon
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
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May 18, 2024
May 18, 2024
1hr 24 min
Dear Diary & Listeners,
In this episode, Kylie opens up about what drove her to be part of The Dichotomy Diaries podcast as we reflect on our shared experiences with relationships.
Join me as Kylie Brocato bravely shares her story about dating Dick, a man with a violent criminal history. What started with attraction and compliments soon turned into a nightmare of verbal abuse, manipulation, and attempts to disrupt her co-parenting relationship.
Despite the chaos, Kylie’s strength shone through, and she ultimately ended the toxic relationship, leading to a much healthier co-parenting dynamic with her ex. We dive deep into the dynamics of Kylie's relationship with Dick, including his neglect of his own children while trying to claim hers, his financial instability and gambling, and his secret life as a sex worker for men!
Kylie’s revelation about being deceived by Dick's false narratives highlights the importance of setting boundaries and recognizing red flags. We also discuss how Dick used location sharing as a control tactic, the financial strain he caused, and his outrageous public behavior.
Join us for a heartfelt and insightful conversation that underscores the importance of resilience, boundaries, and self-awareness in relationships. Don't forget to like, comment, and subscribe for more episodes every week! 💖
Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda
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Music: Ashley England
Guest: Kylie Brocato
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
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May 28, 2024
May 28, 2024
1hr 22 min
Dear Diary & Listeners,
In today's episode, I had the pleasure of sitting down with Ambre to delve into the whirlwind of emotions and experiences that come with falling in love with a Wolf in Sheep's clothing.
Ambre takes us through her journey of meeting our shared ex, where the sparks flew and the relationship progressed rapidly. She opens up about the initial attraction, the deepening of their feelings, and the shared belief that they had each found their soulmate.
Our conversation also takes a personal turn as Ambre shares insights into her background, family life, and religious upbringing, providing a rich context to her part of this story.
We navigate through my own experiences, recounting the excitement and connection I felt upon meeting Dick. I reveal the challenges and discoveries I faced, including the surprising revelations about his past engagements and financial behaviors that led to a stark realization of dishonesty and manipulation.
Together, Ambre and I explore the intricate dynamics of our scarily similar relationships, from meeting significant family members to confronting the turmoil and uncertainties that emerged. It's a heartfelt and eye-opening discussion about love, trust, and the lessons we learn along the way.
Thank you for tuning in, and I hope this episode resonates with you as much as it did with me.
You can learn more about Ambre by checking out her socials below:
Instagram: @AmbreFit
YouTube: @ambrefit
Twitter: @TheAmbreFit
TikTok: @AmbreFit
www.AmbreFit.com
Stay tuned for PART 2 or this THREE part story next week!
Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS
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Season Two Story Pitch Call
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Music: Ashley England
Guest: Ambre McKee
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
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Jun 4, 2024
Jun 4, 2024
1hr 16 min
Dear Diary & Listeners,
In this powerful and raw episode of The Dichotomy Diaries, Amanda sits down with Ambre to uncover the many layers of their toxic relationships. The conversation delves into several deeply personal themes, including:
Strained Family Dynamics: Amanda shares insights into the troubled relationship between her husband and his father, exposing the negative family dynamics and emotional abuse she endured.
Financial Control and Manipulation: Both Amanda and Ambre discuss the financial issues they faced, including how their partners used money as a tool for control and manipulation.
Emotional and Verbal Abuse: They recount the hurtful comments, derogatory language, and verbal attacks that characterized their relationships, highlighting the damaging impact on their mental health.
Gambling Addiction: The episode explores the significant role that Amanda's husband's gambling addiction played in their lives, adding another layer of complexity to the abuse.
Conflict Diffusion: Amanda and Ambre describe their roles as peacemakers in constant conflicts, often at the expense of their own well-being.
Suspicious Friendships: The conversation also touches on the suspicious and unhealthy relationship between Amanda's husband, Dick, and his friend Matt.
The episode continues with Ambre's experiences of manipulation, coercion, and financial abuse in her relationship. Key points include:
Broken Promises and Anxiety: Ambre recounts how her partner's broken promises left her feeling scared and anxious, a sentiment Amanda relates to deeply.
Self-Prioritization and Derogation: They discuss how their partners prioritized themselves, often putting Ambre down and making her feel insignificant.
Steroids and Hormone Therapy: Ambre shares how her partner's involvement with steroids and hormone therapy affected their relationship, including an incident of physical aggression.
Car Situation: They talk about the partner's procrastination in getting a new car, reflecting his overall lack of responsibility.
Finally, Amanda and Ambre discuss their experiences living with a narcissist, shedding light on:
Unstable Living Conditions: They share stories of being moved to different apartments without consent, contributing to financial instability.
Empty Promises: The narcissists' habit of making promises and failing to follow through, leaving them in precarious situations during trips and daily life.
Obsession with Fitness: The narcissists' fixation on gyms and fitness, and how it impacted their relationships.
Dangerous Behavior: Accounts of physically aggressive behavior during "play fights" and the narcissists' lack of remorse.
Through this candid conversation, Amanda and Ambre highlight the manipulative, unpredictable, and damaging nature of their relationships with narcissists. Tune in to hear their stories and gain a deeper understanding of the complex dynamics of abusive relationships.
Remember to share this episode if it resonates with you or someone you know, and follow The Dichotomy Diaries for more stories of strength and resilience.
Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda
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If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Guest: Ambre McKee
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
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Jun 20, 2024
Jun 20, 2024
1hr 5 min
Dear Diary & Listeners,
HAPPY SUMMER SOLSTICE!
I know right? Quite coincidental for the LAST part of Ambre's story to be released wouldn't you say?
I love it when things like that happen.
I also love it when you can tell by the look in someone's face that a weight has been lifted from sharing something they kept to themselves for so long.
I applaud Ambre for making herself vulnerable and putting herself out there by telling this story.
In this episode you will hear some pretty shocking things...
From Dick's unconventional bedroom requests to a new scary part to his persona- stalking...
I hope you enjoy Summer Solstice Part 3.
Please make sure you give Ambre a follow, her links are below and make sure you head over and subscribe to YouTube. All episodes are released there FIRST.
Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda L. Arnier, MLS
Instagram: @AmbreFit
YouTube: @ambrefit
Twitter: @TheAmbreFit
TikTok: @AmbreFit
www.AmbreFit.com
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If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Guest: Ambre McKee
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier
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Jun 20, 2024
Jun 20, 2024
1hr 52 min
Dear Diary & Listeners,
In today’s episode, I am joined by a very special guest—Savana, who was once engaged to Dick. From the moment I reached out to her, Savana has been a pillar of support in uncovering the shocking truths about our shared ex.
Savana’s story is one of beauty, resilience, and positive energy. She brings her sassy and captivating personality to this conversation, making for an episode you won't want to miss. Together, we dive into the complexities of their experiences with Dick, revealing insights that are both startling and compelling.
This episode marks part one of their revealing conversation, titled “Straight to Zelle.” Be sure to give Savana a follow, her social media links are listed below!
Oh, go check out the video recording of this podcast, now live on YouTube. Don’t forget to subscribe to our channel, each podcast episode drops on YouTube before anywhere else!
Forever Sharing My Truth,
Amanda L. Arnier, MLS
Savana's Hair Instagram
Savana's Personal Instagram
Savana's TikTok
Stay tuned for PART 2 of Straight to Zelle coming out NEXT WEEK!
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Amanda Arnier
Podcast Host
Hi, I’m Amanda—let’s take a walk through my day.
First thing’s first: caffeine, floor cuddles & affirmations with my Great Danes, and a quick reality check that yes, I’m still obsessed with true crime podcasts. (this part will make sense more a little later)
By 10 a.m., I’m either deep in podcast recording mode, unraveling some of the wildest relationship drama you've ever heard, or prepping for the next episode of The Dichotomy Diaries—my little corner of the podcast world where I spill everything I’ve learned (and unlearned) about myself, love, manipulation, and finding your way out of some seriously dark places.
If you’re looking for credentials, I’ve got them. I hold two degrees from Arizona State University—because, you know, why not make life even more complex by adding Law School to the mix? But honestly, my real expertise comes from life itself. I’ve lived through more than a few “you can’t make this up” situations, and sharing those stories has become my lifeline—and hopefully, yours too.
Here’s what you need to know: this podcast is about me being real, and by real, I mean sharing my soul, my mess, and all the lessons that came from it. I was in a relationship that nearly broke me, but instead of hiding the shame, I decided to put it out there, raw and unfiltered. And while everyone thought I was nuts, this was how I reclaimed my power.
My gut told me this podcast was the key to healing, and, spoiler alert—it was right. Now, I use my story to connect with people like you, who’ve probably had their own share of “WTF?” moments in love.
So, stick around if you’re into some serious tea, unfiltered truths, lots of laughs, and maybe, just maybe, some healing along the way.
Random Facts
- I might as well be a dude when it comes to sports. I’m obsessed with F1, tennis, hockey, the NBA, and Roll Tide Alabama football. Bet I know more player stats than the guy you’re dating.
- My Great Danes, Carrera Miura are named after my favorite classic Lamborghini and Monza Firenze after my top bucket list F1 race and my favorite city in the entire world.
- Most days, I just want to escape to the woods, pitch a tent, and sip on some Coors Light by a fire with my dogs and my boyfriend. Moments over Materials.
- I’m completely self-taught in podcasting, from production to graphic design. If you see it or hear it, I did that shit myself.
- I’ve been listening to true crime podcasts since Serial debuted, and let me tell you, I never in a million years thought I would be the subject of a true crime documentary, let alone the host of a TOP 1.5% global podcast!
- I can belt out Andrea Bocelli, analyze Dante’s Inferno, and teach you some crazy history on pasta origins—I love my heritage!
My Why
The Dichotomy Diaries is where I lay it all out—everything in my soul. The good, the bad, the messy, the embarrassing—I hold nothing back. I knew deep down that I needed to rid myself of the shame I had carried from my past relationship. And while everyone around me thought sharing my story was a bad idea, I felt it in every fiber of my being that this was the only way I would truly heal from a wound that was so deep and intentional.
At a time when I couldn’t even trust my own judgment—after being manipulated and hurt by someone I believed deeply loved me—this podcast became my lifeline. It was the key to me learning to trust my gut again. Through telling these stories, I realized without a doubt that I knew exactly what I needed to do to save myself.
This podcast isn’t just about telling my story—it’s about reclaiming my power, finding my voice, and understanding that I’ve always had the strength within me. Sharing everything here has been my way of healing, and it’s proof that even when you think you can’t trust yourself, you absolutely can.
Ready to Share your Truth?
If you have been deeply affected by a close relationship and are ready and willing to help others by sharing your personal journey, I invite you to connect with me by clicking the link below. Your authentic experiences can help us shine a light on this complex issue, fostering understanding and healing for others.
By collecting real, unfiltered experiences, we can finally make a stride towards creating policy that protect us and future generations—because when it comes to The Courts, the power is in the numbers.
❤️Amanda