The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast

When host Amanda meets Dick, the charming Mormon man from Las Vegas relentlessly pursuing her via social media for months, she never could have imagined the whirlwind that would follow. What starts as a passionate romance quickly spirals into something far more sinister. The Dichotomy Diaries isn’t just about your “run-of-the-mill” divorce—it’s about seven women, all unknowingly connected by the same predator, sharing their raw, unfiltered stories of betrayal, manipulation, and abusive games disguised as love. Season One pulls back the curtain on The Dichotomy that is Dick; as Amanda and his other victims untangle the dark layers of deceit he’s woven. On the surface, he’s the charming, devoted Mormon, but beneath that facade lies a man entangled in the deeply hidden and taboo world of financial domination, secret escorting for men, and compulsive gambling. Together, these seven women expose not just the abusive games he played, but the resilience it takes to emerge from them. Join The Dichotomy Diaries as we dive into firsthand accounts of survival, twisted relationships, and the journey to rise from the ashes. These aren’t just stories—they’re proof that truth is often stranger than fiction.

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Amanda Arnier

Podcast Host

Hi, I’m Amanda—let’s take a walk through my day.

First thing’s first: caffeine, floor cuddles & affirmations with my Great Danes, and a quick reality check that yes, I’m still obsessed with true crime podcasts. (this part will make sense more a little later)

By 10 a.m., I’m either deep in podcast recording mode, unraveling some of the wildest relationship drama you've ever heard, or prepping for the next episode of The Dichotomy Diaries—my little corner of the podcast world where I spill everything I’ve learned (and unlearned) about myself, love, manipulation, and finding your way out of some seriously dark places.

If you’re looking for credentials, I’ve got them. I hold two degrees from Arizona State University—because, you know, why not make life even more complex by adding Law School to the mix? But honestly, my real expertise comes from life itself. I’ve lived through more than a few “you can’t make this up” situations, and sharing those stories has become my lifeline—and hopefully, yours too.

Here’s what you need to know: this podcast is about me being real, and by real, I mean sharing my soul, my mess, and all the lessons that came from it. I was in a relationship that nearly broke me, but instead of hiding the shame, I decided to put it out there, raw and unfiltered. And while everyone thought I was nuts, this was how I reclaimed my power.

My gut told me this podcast was the key to healing, and, spoiler alert—it was right. Now, I use my story to connect with people like you, who’ve probably had their own share of “WTF?” moments in love.

So, stick around if you’re into some serious tea, unfiltered truths, lots of laughs, and maybe, just maybe, some healing along the way.

Random Facts

- I might as well be a dude when it comes to sports. I’m obsessed with F1, tennis, hockey, the NBA, and Roll Tide Alabama football. Bet I know more player stats than the guy you’re dating.

- My Great Danes, Carrera Miura are named after my favorite classic Lamborghini and Monza Firenze after my top bucket list F1 race and my favorite city in the entire world.

- Most days, I just want to escape to the woods, pitch a tent, and sip on some Coors Light by a fire with my dogs and my boyfriend. Moments over Materials.

- I’m completely self-taught in podcasting, from production to graphic design. If you see it or hear it, I did that shit myself.

- I’ve been listening to true crime podcasts since Serial debuted, and let me tell you, I never in a million years thought I would be the subject of a true crime documentary, let alone the host of a TOP 1.5% global podcast!

- I can belt out Andrea Bocelli, analyze Dante’s Inferno, and teach you some crazy history on pasta origins—I love my heritage!

The Story Markets Itself...

What is Listen Score? Listen Score (LS) is a metric that shows the estimated popularity of this podcast compared to other rss-based public podcasts in the world on a scale from 0 to 100. The higher, the more popular. Calculated from 1st and 3rd party data. Updated monthly.

What is Global Rank? This podcast is one of the top 1.5% most popular shows out of 3,433,423 podcasts globally, ranked by Listen Score (the estimated popularity score).

My Why

The Dichotomy Diaries is where I lay it all out—everything in my soul. The good, the bad, the messy, the embarrassing—I hold nothing back. I knew deep down that I needed to rid myself of the shame I had carried from my past relationship. And while everyone around me thought sharing my story was a bad idea, I felt it in every fiber of my being that this was the only way I would truly heal from a wound that was so deep and intentional.

At a time when I couldn’t even trust my own judgment—after being manipulated and hurt by someone I believed deeply loved me—this podcast became my lifeline. It was the key to me learning to trust my gut again. Through telling these stories, I realized without a doubt that I knew exactly what I needed to do to save myself.

This podcast isn’t just about telling my story—it’s about reclaiming my power, finding my voice, and understanding that I’ve always had the strength within me. Sharing everything here has been my way of healing, and it’s proof that even when you think you can’t trust yourself, you absolutely can.

Episodes

Saturday Sep 16, 2023

The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Sneak Peek #1

Saturday Sep 16, 2023

Dear Diary & Listeners,
This is your FIRST Sneak Peek at what is to come.
Here is a taste of what to expect in The Dichotomy Diaries.
Prepare to pick your jaw up off the floor every episode as you join ME- your host, Amanda Arnier on a tale of lies, manipulation, narcissistic abuse, compulsive gambling, male escorting, and the pressures of The Mormon Church.
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music & Sound Production: Ashley England
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Saturday Sep 16, 2023

The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Sneak Peek #2

Saturday Sep 16, 2023

Dear Diary & Listeners,
Here is your second taste of what is to come in The Dichotomy Diaries.
Prepare to pick your jaw up off the floor every episode as you join ME: your host, Amanda Arnier on a tale of lies, manipulation, narcissistic abuse, compulsive gambling, male escorting, and the pressures of The Mormon Church.
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music & Sound Production: Ashley England
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Monday Sep 18, 2023

The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Official Trailer

Monday Sep 18, 2023

Dear Diary & Listeners,
The Official Trailer for The Dichotomy Diaries premiering October 10th, 2023.
Prepare to pick your jaw up off the floor every episode as you join ME: your host, Amanda Arnier on a tale of lies, manipulation, narcissistic abuse, compulsive gambling, male escorting, and the pressures of The Mormon Church.
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music & Sound Production: Ashley England
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Monday Oct 09, 2023

The Sin City Serpent

Monday Oct 09, 2023

Dear Diary & Listeners,
There is nothing more difficult than losing a loved one.
The pain one experiences when they can no longer hug, kiss, smell, confide in, and share life with a loved one is unlike any other.
Imagine experiencing this pain abruptly. There's just one difference, your loved one isn't dead. They ran away, entirely aware of the pain they knew this would cause you.
How does one manage the stages of grief and the confusion intertwined in such a malicious act- at the hands of someone they trusted?
It's fucking hard, but it is possible. I am proof.
This inaugural episode of The Dichotomy Diaries is called The Sin City Serpent. You will relive with me; meeting the Mormon/Latter Day Saint (LDS) man I married. We will dive into the spiraling, dark world where his career choice lived. You will experience the love-bombing, narcissistic tendencies, and financial abuse and manipulation first hand. Together we will dissect how deep trauma bonds are formed. And how trauma responses can look different for everyone.
You may find yourself, like me- asking these questions...
Why does she offer love to those who treat her so poorly?
Why does she exhaust herself for the sake of others' comfort?
Why does she anchor her "home" in another person rather than within herself?
These questions and more will be answered throughout Season One.
If you're looking for "The Tea", you have come to the right place. Every episode released will get you closer and closer to the center of what just might be, the cruelest love scam of all time.
Stay tuned for surprise BONUS episodes featuring special guests and the highly anticipated upcoming episodes featuring the NINE WOMEN who DICK got to first; and how all of this was unknown, until now.
If you're looking for an amazing story on True Crime, Narcissistic Abuse, Emotional Abuse, Financial Abuse, Manipulation, Sex Work, and Spiritual Abuse. You're in the right place.
Brace yourself, this is just beginning.

With Truth, Courage, and Pain,
Amanda Arnier, MLS

WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music & Sound Production: Ashley England
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Monday Oct 16, 2023

Shroom Things & Wedding Rings

Monday Oct 16, 2023

Dear Diary & Listeners,
I had a profound realization this week.
It's easy to view all that has happened as a loss. A devastating, painful loss.
Recounting my relentless effort and hope left me with this overwhelming feeling of emptiness.
How could I have given and given with absolutely nothing in return?
Why did he never feel or notice how hard I was trying to love him?
Was I actually loving him?
And then it clicked. Sometimes, the way we learn the true meaning of Unconditional Love- is by experiencing the pain of its absence. This wasn't one big L. My Try, My Consistency, My Persistence...it was all unconditional, always.
This week you will start to see Dick's true colors start to emerge. Lies wrapped in manipulation presenting themself as love are sprinkled all over this episode. You'll meet a few Sugar Daddies, Our Bishop, and find yourself front row to the epic way Dick proposed...

Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS

WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music & Sound Production: Ashley England
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Saturday Oct 28, 2023

Q&A Surprise!

Saturday Oct 28, 2023

Dear Diary and Listeners,
Surprise!
I had fun answering all your questions.
Can’t wait for Tuesday!
See you there,
Amanda

WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music & Sound Production: Ashley England
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Monday Oct 30, 2023

Electric Daisy Abandonment

Monday Oct 30, 2023

Dear Diary & Listeners,
You know how some people say, "God will never give you more than you can handle"?
After recording this episode, I found myself thinking about that phrase a lot.
The process of outlining my relationship with Dick for this podcast has been filled with sorrow, but it has also brought understanding.
There were so many painful moments I experienced during this time that had been subconsciously tucked away in a file cabinet in my mind. Unpacking those file cabinets feels like I am experiencing them again, for the first time, right along with you.
I probably have some of the same questions you all are having:
Why didn't I just let him leave for good?
How many times does Dick have to tell me he doesn't want to be with me before I actually believe him?
But the biggest question of them all is...
Why didn't leaving him ever cross my mind?
So, I did a little soul searching, and what I realized was heart-wrenching.
I subliminally laid everything I had at his feet: my money, my family, my love, my support, and my future. I continued to trust him even when he gave me every reason not to. I was scared not to trust. I was scared to lose the ONE thing I had left... Him.
God would never give me more than I can handle, right?
This week, you'll learn more about my proposal, wedding planning, and events leading up to the big day. We will uncover yet another Sugar Daddy, dissect the gambling more, and experience the worst abandonment up until this point in the story. You'll also begin to understand his explanation behind leaving, followed by our plan to fix the core problem.
Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS

WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music & Sound Production: Ashley England
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Monday Oct 30, 2023

Promises, Panic & Poppers

Monday Oct 30, 2023

Dear Diary & Listeners,
I cried recording part of this episode.
And it got me thinking...
Why did THIS episode make me cry?
What is it about my wedding that sparks the tears?

You’d think that reliving the abandonments, the emotional abuse, and all the other subpar efforts confused as love would make me sad...

I know the answer.

This episode didn’t make me cry because I was reflecting on that moment of my wedding ceremony. Tears started flowing in the studio because right then; I felt as if I may never get to experience such a meaningful moment again.
I felt hijacked. Such important meaningful moments, all hijacked by a human incapable of love and compassion.

The thing is...it’s all bullshit. We don’t just get ONE shot at happiness. We get as many as we give ourself. So this is me publicly throwing away the self-limiting doubts.
I finally feel happy again.I know who Amanda Lynette Arnier is. I love that bad ass, resilient bitch. Someone will love me. Far better than I could ever imagine before.

In this episode you will join me for my beautiful wedding in Sedona, AZ. You will also spend an evening in the emergency room. Followed by a road trip to Colorado, Dick’s self-proclaimed LEAST FAVORITE state.
Be sure to share, like, and review. Your feedback and support mean everything.

Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS

WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!
If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.
Season Two Story Pitch Call
Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com
Music: Ashley England
Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier & Ashley England
Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries
YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes!
Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront
Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com
Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

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❤️Amanda

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